ENOUGH!

with the lyrics. ahah.
okay so basically i had one hell of a day. i ran a few errands, and then i thought my day was gonna suck. but in reality, i saw my little brother graduate today. and saw teachers i havent seen in over 6 YEARS! i was stoked. its crazy to visit old schools, and i met up with kids i also havent seen in ages. aww and i saw my girl amber today! we talked and hugged and took a few snapshots. she makes me feel better. i love her! and im totally ready for saturday! ahh! lol venice was suuper fun. diana was told she was gonna be a slut and to "BE SAFE" by a psychic! Hahah how funny. ahah it was just hilarious...she got so depressed. but bbygurl youll be okay. but anyway. me and some friends went to the DRIVE IN TODAY!!! i havent been to one in AGES! ahah we got blankets, pillows, popcorn, and had a blast. "oh shit the baby..no wait..are my glasses okay?" ahahahah seriously i love my friends. ahahah i had an amazing past three days. my friends make every moment the best. and fri. and sat are just looking better. omg! and i got a job offer. things are looking up fooo shooooo. but come monday. hello doctors. urgh... but after im through with that business over the week. the week after next hopefully ill be up and running again. just a tad bit scared. but im sure everything will be fine. oh, one more thing. never let someone bring you down. if they resort to something beneath themselves..they need to learn your young. theres MILLIONS of other opportunities... why get hooked on one thing...and not live. :)

Give me attention
I need it now
Too much distance
To measure it out
Out loud
Tracing patterns across a personal map
And making pictures where the lines overlap

No one is as lucky as us
We're not at the end but oh we already won
No one is as lucky as us

Call me over
Tell me how you got so far
Never making a single sound
I'm not used to it but I can learn
Nothing to it
I've never been happier

No one is as lucky as us
We're not at the end but oh we already won
No one is as lucky as us

Now I've got a feeling if I sang this loud enough you would sing it back to me

No one is as lucky as us
We're not at the end but oh we already won
No one is as lucky as us

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it everything i ever wanted to SAY!!!

Where do all the lovers...meet with one another?

Im in a cheery mood for some reason. but these happy spurts dont last long.
The little ones have a very good cd. i was listening to them today. and another band called discovery. Very very interesting music. hahah. gonna get ready soon to go to my sisters highschool graduation. one of my best friends amber is graduating today! :) there are a two people we both.. wanted to go..but cant. but its okay one of them cant make it cause no transport WE STILL LOVE YOU IVAN. <3 ahah but the others...well ...uh...anyway..i gotta get ready. i said what i had to say. i just hope you understand i did this to myself. i wish i could get better so everyone else will be happy with me. ashes to ashes...dust to dust. we layed them out, the wind took our trust.

first day of my life

as i sit here, just listening to some bright eyes, reference to the title, i just feel okay today. I woke up early thinking i was gonna work out. but my friend didnt wake up. so i decided to fill out another post for this blog. im still kinda depressed about the situation i put myself in, and how i hurt someone i liked. it blows! but i feel that if i can write about it somehow ill start to get over it and move on. cause id REALLY like to. i wanna meet someone who makes me happy all the time. and my friends helped me realize this. haha, nice some strokes just started playing "you only live once", gets me in a better mood. :P so since today is the first day of my summer vacation, im starting off fresh, no love interests, no school, no work, no worries...just yet! so i know exactly what i have to do to make this summer an amazing one, plus i have quite a few goals to accomplish and my aspirations for these goals are high, but if you set your mind to it you can accomplish anything. sure my life kinda sucks right now..but i gotta keep my chin high and roll with the punches. sure ive heard both "when life gives you lemons make lemonade" or "when life gives you lemons, fuck the lemons and BAIL" but in reality just to shove your problems to the side isnt the answer. if life gave me lemons, id just make a bomb as lemon meringue pie. it takes time to make and turns into something that isnt just composed of lemons, its something that takes something so sour, and turns it to something sweet, and like a little prize. So when there is an obstacle in your life, just dont try to get an easy way out, work with it. And you might get somewhere better that you'd never expect. OH and PIE IS DELICIOUS.

my neck hurts cause I'm on my bed trying to write this...
right now I'm listening to hallelujah by jeff buckley... Its making me soo sad
I'm tearing up...partly cause its a song of goodbye, and knowing everything will be okay
its a beautifully written song so download it or something...
god.... Its sad..
"love is not a victory march, its a cold and broken hallelujah...."
:) it makes me feel peaceful.

I need somebody to love and i need to stop
typing like im writing a
poem.

Ill up date this later.