im smiling at everything.

My ship went down
In a sea of sound
When I woke up alone
I had everything

A handful of moments
I wished I could change
And a tongue like a nightmare
That cut like a blade

In a city of fools
I was careful and cool
But they tore me apart
Like a hurricane

A handful of moments
I wished I could change
But I was carried away

Give me therapy
I'm a walking travesty
But I'm smiling at everything
Therapy, you were never a friend to me
And you can keep all your misery

My lungs gave out
As I faced the crowd
I think that keeping this up
Could be dangerous

I'm flesh and bone
I'm a rolling stone
And the experts say I'm delirious

Give me therapy
I'm a walking travesty
But I'm smiling at everything
Therapy, you were never a friend to me
You can take back your misery

Arrogant boy
Love yourself so no one has to
They're better off without you
(They're better off without you)
Arrogant boy
Cause a scene like you're supposed to
They'll fall asleep without you
You're lucky if your memory remains

Give me therapy
I'm a walking travesty
But I'm smiling at everything
Therapy, you were never a friend to me
You can take back your misery

Therapy, I'm a walking travesty
But I'm smiling at everything
Therapy, you were never a friend to me
You can choke on your misery

Your Friend,
Bobbymarc

Brick By Boring Brick

She lives in a fairy tale
Somewhere too far for us to find
Forgotten the taste and smell Of the world that she's left behind
It's all about the exposure the lens
I told her The angles were all wrong
now She's ripping wings off of butterflies
With her feet on the ground
And her head in the clouds
Well go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle,
bury the castle
Ba da ba da ba
So one day he found her crying
Coiled up on the dirty ground
Her prince finally came to save her
And the rest you can figure out
But it was a trick
And the clock struck 12
Well make sure to build your house
brick by boring brick
or the wolves gonna blow it down
With her feet on the ground
And her head in the clouds
Well go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle,
bury the castle
Well you built up a world of magic
Because your real life is tragic
Yeah you built up a world of magic
If it's not real
You can't see it with your eyes
You can't feel it with your heart
And I won't believe it
Cause if it's true
You can see it with your eyes
Even in the dark
And that's where I want to be,
yeah
Go get your shovel
We'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle
Ba da ba da ba

your friend
Bobbymarc

p.s. the artist of the song, is an AMAZING band.

Canvas # 1

k thanks

okay i believe you...but my tommy gun don't.

im heaven sent, dont you dare forget. i am all you've wanted, what all the other boys all promised. sorry i told. i just needed you to know. i think in decimals and dollars. i am the cause to all your problems, shelter from cold. we are never alone.
coordinate brain and mouth. then ask me whats it like to have myself so figured out. i wish i knew..

i hope this song starts a craze. the kinda song that ignites the airwaves. the kinda song that makes people glad to be where they are, with whoever they're there with.

this is war.

every line is about, who i dont wanna write about anymore. hope you come down with something they cant diagnose, dont have the cure for. holding on to your grudge. oh its so hard to have someone to love. and keeping quiet is hard. cause you cant keep a secret, if it never was a secret to start. at least pretend you didnt wanna get caught..

we're concentrated on falling apart. we were contenders, we're throwing the fight. i was just wanna believe, i just wanna believe, i just wanna believe, in us.

Oh, we're so c-c-c-c-c-controversial. we are entirely smooth. we admit to the truth, we are the best at what we do. and these are the words you wish you wrote down. this is the way you wish your voice sounds, handsome and smart. oh my tongue's the only muscle on my body that works harder than my heart.

and its all from watching tv, and from speeding up my breathing. wouldnt stop if i could. oh it hurts to be this good. your holding on to your grudge. oh it hurts to always have to be so honest with the one that you love.
oh, to let it go..

we're concentrated on falling apart. we were contenders, we're throwing the fight. i was just wanna believe, i just wanna believe, i just wanna believe. we're concentrated on falling apart. we were contenders, we're thowing the fight. i just wanna believe, i just wanna believe, i just wanna believe, in us.

this is the craze that only we can bestow.
this is the price you pay for loss of control.
this is the break in the bend,
this is the closest of calls.
this is the reason your alone,
this is the rise and the fall.

we're concentrated on falling apart. we were contenders, we're throwing the fight. i just wanna believe, i just wanna believe, i just wanna believe. we're concentrated on falling apart. we were contenders, we're throwing the fight. i just wanna believe, i just wanna believe, i just wanna believe...

i remember this from seventh grade. and its stuck with me for the years. =]
i absolutely love every line ever wrote.

Your Friend,
Bobbymarc

p.s. I am heaven sent don't you dare forget.

No one, Eleanor Roosevelt said, can make you feel inferior without your consent. Never give it.

These pills im taking WONT LET ME SLEEEP!!! But i get what i can. So i found out yesturday that im for sure going to the last date of warped, and will have vip. not like it will make a difference,...but its FOR FREEEEEEE. thats what counts. :) i realized...some of the best things in life ARE free. For a moment there i sat and just wonder'd how many things in my life that i thought were amazing...truely werent. OR just werent real, its funny cause i tried to make things better..but now..they are just happening..everything happens for a reason. :D Oh and last night while i couldnt sleep i was listening to loveline. and came to the realization, that you have to hold onto your own self respect. why let someone take that from you? it just made me feel soo much better. So today i woke up, got a call , and now i gotta head into the doctors office again. this is a weekly thing now. im gonna take my pills soon, this will jumpstart my day. LOL wow my friend john just called me "omg bobby im scaaarred, idk where the fuck im at, theres old people everywhere! omg omg omg, im at a college campus, eww theres fucking cougers here." ahah this little gay kid is hilarious but luckily he found his way after 5 min on the phone with him he told an old lady who gave him directions "omfg i love you can i give you a hug? im giving you a hug! your my angel, okay bye." ahahah. things like this make my day sooo much funner. lol Have self respect, learn from everything.


"It is the highest form of self-respect to admit our errors and mistakes and make amends for them. To make a mistake is only an error in judgment, but to adhere to it when it is discovered shows infirmity of character." ~Dale E. Turner

Its true. think about it. i learned quite a few things over the past few days. and im starting to be content, and understand. Im getting happier, painting, stealing signs, that night at jesse's, grubbing with ivan, walks with amber, hanging out with friends, drive in's, natashas mom feeding us, jalepeno challenges, pugs attacking me, meeting new people, being reckless, long hikes & the views and accomplishments, getting lost, screaming at the tops of mountains, sunburns, singalongs, special skills(ashley), random jamsessions, friendly battles, POR QUEEE!!!!! HAHA!, long car rides to the beach, highfives, thats what she said, palm readers, black cherrys, mothafuckaaaaalalalalalalalala's, morning runs,random phonecalls, free concert tickets, small kisses, i love you's, & the realization that this will be my year. Are all making this summer the best it is. I am smiling from ear to ear. no matter what happens, it happened for a reason. I can right now say. Yes, I am happy.

And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

Your Friend,
Bobbymarc

let the love tear us apart cause we are soo happy!! :D

I woke up today. In a weird mood. very very weird mood. excited, yet scared. hah.
Urgh im applying for Fall admission to Citrus. Here we go again! i should really map out what classes i want to take. there are soo many! some that interest me, but others where i just dont wanna deal with. i have 1 more english class, one more math class, and two sciences that i have to take...then i have to go for my major. URGH what to focus on! man o man...but so far this summer has been friggin AWESOME!!!!!! There are so many things to look forward too!!! Next weekend 4th of july, gonna chill with some friends, and go to american apparels factory sale!! sooo excited. then comes paramore's concert, then hellogoodbye, then warped for FREE with VIP!!!!! im soo happy all my friends are back from school but come august they head back. but for now, we are all chilin when we can and fucking having an awesome time. lol this summer so far is wicked.
so much to accomplish.
soooooo little time.
ahahah.
alrighty, gotta get to this thing called a bench press, and clean.
sooo ill keep this updated.
"ignorance is your new best friend"
Your Friend,
Bobbymarc

p.s. i leave you with a gift

I'm back in Rosemead,
And everything seems the same,
But I worked something out last night,
That changed this little boys brain,
A small piece of advice,
That took nineteen years in the make,
And I will break it for you now,
Please learn from my mistakes,
Please learn from my mistakes.

Let's dance to joy division,
And celebrate the irony,
Everything is going wrong,
But we're so happy,
Let's dance to joy division,
And raise our glass to the ceiling,
'Cos this could all go so wrong,
But we're so happy,
Yeah we're so happy.

So if you're ever feeling down,
Grab your purse and take a taxi,
To the darker side of town,
That's where we'll be,
And we will wait for you and lead you through the dancefloor,
Up to the DJ booth,
You know what to ask for,
You know what to ask for.

Go ask for Joy Division,
And celebrate the irony,
Everything is going wrong,
But we're so happy,
Go ask for Joy Division,
And raise your glass to the ceiling,
'Cos this could all go so wrong,
But we're so happy,
So happy.

So let the love tear us apart,
I've found the cure for a broken heart,
Let it tear us apart,
Let it tear us apart,
Let it tear us apart.

Let's dance to joy division,
And celebrate the irony,
Everything is going wrong,
But were so happy,
Let's dance to joy division,
And raise our glass to the ceiling,
'Cos this could all go so wrong,
But we're so happy,
Yeah we're so happy,
So happy,
Yeah we're so happy,
So happy,
Yeah we're so happy.